I can’t believe this is happening to us in the U.S.! I know I need to remain strong but we’ve worked so hard to get where we are and now this damn virus is going to destroy everything i’ve built. It’s going to ruin all our lives. And nobody cares…you’d think family would reach out to us and ask us how we’re doing? My brother hasn’t reached out to me once, not once and I’m ok with that.i am not ok here in usa. i wish i was in Mexico.
Our wedding doesn’t even get mentioned, you know why? Cause nobody gave a shit to begin with. That’s the truth. only zoom hijacking. Is love supose to beon the zoom the zipper.
Why should we be happy? Right? Why? And now we have to live like rats in this apartment, amongst the filth, the mess, the landlord won’t even finish the evilness now, he’ll not use the virus as his excuse or he will will he?, to leave it like that for months. It’ll go on victimizin throughout the night, a further aggravation. All this, it’s making me weak.
See my face? See me? See how I’m looking? Have you noticed? No, no, you haven’t noticed, because you don’t look at me, you glance, just glance in my direction. There’s no love , there’s no love during the times corona, everything is forgotten, all that exists is this mess, its ominous smell. Don’t you see it? I see it, I feel it. But you don’t! You just live in it like everything’s going to be okay, like everything is gonna be back to normal. NOTHING is normal, there is no normal. Are you blind? Things are getting worse and there’s nothing that can be done to stop it!
I hear my head it is loud but meditation only meditation might work.
…Wait…wait, I remember…this happened before. I remember. I spoke to them, I already spoke to my family, my, I heard from the church, didn’t I? He told me next month…next month. I am to go to a codependent meeting …realy on god, what’s going on ?this is suppose be what? What’s happening?!