In Negative Energy, Arash is completely against having his friend’s a.a sponsee Jack hang out with them temporarily which sparks this monologue.
Arash: THIS, it’s always something. Whenever I come home from work you have some sort of issue going on and I can’t deal with it. I need my space and I need my peace. You make everything such a big deal and it’s becoming too much. It overwhelms me and I end up feeling depressed and angry and I don’t want to feel that way. I’m not that way. I’m more chilled and optimistic and you drag me down to the pits of hell and whenever I try to bring you some light you wrestle with me for hours, until finally, finally you are in a better mood but by then I’m exhausted and have no strength to do anything for myself that pleases me. I have to work up the positive energy inside myself to get out of whatever crappy state of mind you put me in to begin with. I don’t want to do this anymore.