In Something Else Takes Over, Arash talks to his Auntie about how he can’t seem to get a handle on his anger and hurts those he loves in the process.
Arash: I don’t want to act the way I act sometimes. When I cant handle my uncontrollable temper it’s like something else takes over and I don’t feel like me and I don’t want to be like that. It’s so ugly and I hate myself afterwards.
My mother…I say things to her that I shouldn’t say and I know I shouldn’t say them. I blame her for whenever I’m not happy or something goes wrong. I take it out on her and that’s when I let out all my anger and it’s not fair on her…she does everything for me, everything.
She’s my best friend and I treat her so badly when I’m upset. I don’t know how to turn it off. I want to stop it but I can’t and I hurt her emotionally…I see her face and I am so guilty…so…I think I need help, like, I should talk to someone professional because if I continue to cause my mother pain, I don’t know what I’ll do.