Arash’s “I’m Not Who I Used To Be”

In this monologue, Arash is confronted by his friend for not living out their teenage dreams in adulthood and this is his friend response.

Arash: You stayed the same, I evolved. You never changed. The same way we were in our teens is exactly how you remained. It’s like you haven’t developed to the next chapter. I evolved. I changed. I moved to the next chapter. I have a house and work hard. I have commitments. Do you understand?  You didn’t do any of that and there’s nothing wrong with your life because it’s the way you’ve chosen to live it and that’s fine but you don’t respect my choices and who I am today. You think I’m still teenage Arash and I’m not.

I’m not who I used to be, Sherlock. You keep trying to pull me back to who I used to be and I’m not going. I’m not walking back there with you, even for a second because I like who I am now.

Hullabaloo

In this serio-comic monologue from the short one-act play Hullabaloo, Arash is emotionally chaotic over his rebellious teenage son.

Arash: I heard frightening tales about that academy. Heard they pin you down in a chair like that movie A Clockwork Orange and they zap you with electrical experiments and alter your mind and it changes you, not necessarily for the better, what if it makes you worse, heard there’s all sorts of vanishings going on, young men going to the academy and half of them never coming home, they vanish. That true? I mean, Sam Rogers left for the academy, didn’t he? He was much older than us and look at him now, come back like a vegetable, eyes open wide, most determined pair of eyes I ever did see, like he’s trying to say something important. Sure, they say he fell from some watchtower but honestly, do you really buy that hogwash? I don’t, never did. The thought of sending my precious son to some brainwashing academy is simply out of the question. The thought cripples me with fear. No way, no how.

Food On The Table Monnologue

In the new play, Food On The Table, Arash gets wrongfully accused of theft at his job and begs his superior to keep his job on behalf of his family.

Arash: The other times I left the work area was on account of my boy. There’s always something going on with him and my girlfriend, she, without me…I have to be there for my family when they need me…I’m sorry, but that’s the truth. If it means me losing my job than so be it, but what is a man supposed to do, Darla? How am I supposed to take care of my family?

I’m focused on my job, but when I got a frantic phone call the blood drained from me, and all I can see is my family…

It’s my fault. I left the inventory unattended, but when your girlfriend calls you up crying in a panic on the phone because your child is injured, it’s hard to think rationally while I’m in the thick of it, and I’m not the sharpest tool in the shed, I’m smart enough to recognize that fact and umm, I guess what I’m steering at is that I’m asking you to have some compassion for me, for my loved ones, some understanding cause I’m trying, I’m trying real hard and I feel lucky you’ve given me this chance…I feel blessed.

For the first time in a long time I feel like, I don’t know, like I’m adding up to something, that I actually mean something to others. My, uh, my self-esteem, confidence…it goes a long way when you can put food on the table and uh, I plan on marrying Cassandra, I love her and I’m trying to save up for a ring…

This is all I got, please, give me one more chance…please…just one more shot and I swear I won’t let you down, no matter what, Darla, no matter what…

Something Else Take Over Story


In Something Else Takes Over, Arash talks to his Auntie about how he can’t seem to get a handle on his anger and hurts those he loves in the process.

Arash: I don’t want to act the way I act sometimes. When I cant handle my uncontrollable temper it’s like something else takes over and I don’t feel like me and I don’t want to be like that. It’s so ugly and I hate myself afterwards.

My mother…I say things to her that I shouldn’t say and I know I shouldn’t say them. I blame her for whenever I’m not happy or something goes wrong. I take it out on her and that’s when I let out all my anger and it’s not fair on her…she does everything for me, everything.

She’s my best friend and I treat her so badly when I’m upset. I don’t know how to turn it off. I want to stop it but I can’t and I hurt her emotionally…I see her face and I am so guilty…so…I think I need help, like, I should talk to someone professional because if I continue to cause my mother pain, I don’t know what I’ll do.

Outer Reaches of Space

In Outer Reaches of Space, Arash goes on a monologue rant about the inconvenience of shopping to his girlfriend without realizing she’s in a store.

Arash: Can you run in and ask someone if they have exactly what you are looking for? I can’t stand waiting in this—I’m gonna get heat stroke, I feel it coming on—just go in there, ask the lady if she has the cream you want, if she says no, leave, if she says yes, buy it. Please. Don’t go and have another two hour conversation about where she’s from and asking about discounts and all the bullshit stories you make up to try and get a deal, cause I can’t take it.

Honestly, I’m like a heart attack away from death. Angie, you don’t understand. I know I sound crazy, cause you’ve gotten me worked up to this point. Look at me, I can’t even control myself cause I feel overwhelmed with all these fragrances in the air—so deep in my nostrils, I can’t even breathe anymore, it burns my throat and I wonder, you know, I walk through the store wondering how in the hell do people that work here, surivive such smells, all day long. Like, if I worked here, I’d be in a different department, I couldn’t do perfumes or colognes or whatever that posionous gas is, I’d DIE.

I rather work in the shoe section or suits, yeah, maybe the suits where things are calm, less customers, people are a little more assertive. I can’t stand the madness. All this running around, jumping over one another, sweating with the hot flashes going on and the constant search for the best item for the best deal. I can’t take it. I get dizzy, frustrated, annoyed, grumpy, sarcastic, violent, well no, not violent but I feel violent, which makes me worse cause I don’t act on my violent feelings cause I’m a gentleman, and the restraint bubbles up under my neck, slowly strangling me, that’s why, that’s why I’m freaking hot—

Arash’s Life As A Smoker

In Life As A Smoker, ARASH talks to his twenty-seven year old Grandson Mohammad about his life as a smoker.

Arash:  Smoked for 49 years.  Now I suffer until I’m dead.  I read in this book my girlfriend Alma gave me that what I have is a slow, suffocating, miserable death.  When I read that, things changed.  I don’t think she knew that it said that or else she would have never of given it to me.  Regardless, it deeply depressed me.

It is sad young man!

Ah, it’s no use, no use, no use.  I’d give anything, an arm, a leg, just to be able to breath again, Mohammad.  Just wish I could do what I used to do.  I walk twelve feet and you see how I get.  Feels like a sumo wrestler is standing on my chest, Mohammad.

That’s why I always stressed to you, well, ALL my grandchildren…don’t smoke.  Look at me and that should cure anybody that wants to smoke.

No Harm No Foul

In No Harm No Foul, Arash expresses his feelings for the loss of his best friend Sky, while at a funeral parlor with only one other person present.

Arash : One time we went up to Apalachian Mountain and Sky was way behind me on this trail and a bear came out of nowhere and stood up on its hind legs directly in front of Sky, roaring all kinds of obscenities at Sky and Sky just stayed there, looking right at the bear, he didn’t flinch, he didn’t look worried, he didn’t look away, he was calm and as a matter of fact he looked like he was smiling, not smiling exactly but sort of had this at ease type of look, like it didn’t matter that this big ass bear was standing up eight feet from the ground ready to bite his head clear off…but Sky man, Sky was just chilling…haha…he wasn’t scared. I was scared, for him, but he, he wasn’t scared one bit and you know something, that damn bear, no matter how big he was, no matter how much he growled, no matter how much he bared his fangs, he eventually gave up…the bear came down from its hind legs and sort of moseyed along, but not before giving one last dirty look to Billy before going off into the woods.

Now, I just about near shit myself. Was absolutely useless in that situation, I must admit. Frozen solid in the dead of summer. Ha!

I’m Not Who I Used To Be

In this monologue, ARASH is confronted by his friend for not living out their teenage dreams in adulthood and this is his response.

ARASH: You stayed the same, I evolved. You never changed. The same way we were in our teens is exactly how you remained. It’s like you haven’t developed to the next chapter. I evolved. I changed. I moved to the next chapter. I’m married, have a house and work hard. I have commitments. Do you understand?  You didn’t do any of that and there’s nothing wrong with your life because it’s the way you’ve chosen to live it and that’s fine but you don’t respect my choices and who I am today. You think I’m still teenage Billy and I’m not.

I’m not who I used to be, Mel. You keep trying to pull me back to who I used to be and I’m not going. I’m not walking back there with you, even for a second because I like who I am now.